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Thursday, April 13, 2006

and more....

I had an observation about myself this morning. I was walking my 3 miles on a track nearby and I was just praying and contemplating things going on in my life right now. I was just praying and asking God's help in a few areas of my life. One I will share with you. I want more. This is what I struggle with. Why when I get $20 do I want $20 more? Why is it that if I taste one M&M I want the whole bag? Why do I try to get the MOST for my money? Why do I like quantity more than quality most of the time? I prayed about this to God and began to just be real open with Him. Not that He doesn't already know my thoughts and my heart, but it is something else when you hear yourself admitting this to GOD. I was asking God WHY am I like this? There are some areas of my life that I am content and satisfied. My life in general is good and blessed. But, why am I not content with that? Why do I want more? As I just talked this out with God I made reasons for myself like society sets me up to be this way. Maybe I was spoiled as a child. Maybe my husband is too good to me. Maybe YOU, God, are too good to me?

I would like to tell you that I got a really good answer, but I didn't. I didn't hear anything just my feet hitting the trail in steady beats. I will keep striving to understand God and who He is in me.  I will keep walking.

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In our Bible study last night we talked about the importance of silence and how God speaks to you through silence. I'm sure the answer will come.

Posted by: Kellie | Thursday, April 13, 2006