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Monday, April 03, 2006

Failure to see

I go through my day in so many different directions. I am pulled in a million different places and there is always needs to be met. There is always laundry to be done and there is always a boo-boo to kiss. I get ready in a rather viscious hurry and try to beat the clock while Grace is napping. I have to get a shower, "fix" my hair, splash some make-up on (mainly so I look like a wife when my husband comes home) and I throw on some clothes. Most of the time it is jeans and a t-shirt. Nothing spectacular. I always feel fat. I never feel like I measure up to the high standards I have for myself. I continually judge myself about the house. This afternoon as I did the "double-time" shower duty of getting ready, I stopped. I was throwing on some make-up and stopped. I looked at myself. Something caught my eye. I noticed a small wrinkle in the corner of my eye that hasn't always been there. Now, I am not one of those women who will go out today and get botox injected to try to beat the time of aging. But, I stood there for a few minutes and just surveyed myself and in some way my heart. I looked deep on my inside for "wrinkles" that I have been ignoring. I found several. Then I broke before God and begged him to not let me carry my own burdens again. I do it so often. In a weird way, carrying those burdens is comfortable for me. It really has nothing to do with aging. But, more to do with aging with God. Growing in him and depending on him. Letting HIM take care of my needs even when I don't know them myself.

I know I am not the only one. Let's rest and be focused on Christ and the great mystery that some of us might call, LIFE.

Colossians 2:2
2 I want you woven into a tapestry of love, in touch with everything there is to know of God. Then you will have minds confident and at rest, focused on Christ, God's great mystery.

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that is such a great post! The Lord has been really working on me to release things to Him. He wants to do all kinds of mighty things but I have to let go first and get out of the way! It's such a hard lesson to learn but He's given me so much strength this last week to "get it". I'm so glad He got your attention too and is continuing to work in your heart. God bless you, dear sister.

In HIM - Helen

Posted by: littlelitehouse | Tuesday, April 11, 2006